We are slogging through the Milk Memos in the lactation room, and I had planned to give a copy to a friend at the daycare with a 3 week old who doesn’t want to go back to work. But the more I read it, the more I am not so sure she’ll be convinced. I am starting to think it is a good book full of useful tips for women who have made the decision to be back at work. And all views of how you might feel once you have returned are represented, so you can find someone to sympathize with, but the main point of view is how tragic it is to leave your baby. So much so that I was starting to feel guilty because I don’t feel that way.
This morning Jack was so cute when I was getting ready that I felt a tiny twinge. But he was still pretty darn cute when I picked him up too. I wonder if my flexible schedule is the reason that I don’t feel like going back to work is the worst decision ever. I used to think that only women who were curing cancer or helping the needy should work. Somehow I got past that. The world needs databases administered by women!
But just because I feel like this today, doesn’t mean I will tomorrow. Tomorrow I might think, “Wah wah wah. I want to be home all day with my baby.” Or I might think, “I wish I was nursing my baby in the bath.” Or “I think I’ll sweeten my coffee with some breast milk.” Wait, what? No I would never think those second two things, those are from the book.
Part of the issue here is that my local circle of working-outside-the-home mommies is very small. In basically includes my lactation room buddy and people I know from the daycare. So calling all role models! Why is working-outside-the-home the right thing for you?